I’ll admit it!!! Farm life is hard!!!! Demanding on so many levels! And yet I love it! So many people ask me how I do all I do and usually I’m like” it’s not that hard.” “It’s not that busy.” Well this week it was. Hard. Busy. My heart has been bombarded with hurting friends. Sickness has been in our family. Kids have had end of the school activities. The weather has been cRaZy with rain almost EVERY day!!!!! Babies (goats) have been born. Chickens have died. I am spent physically and emotionally. Yet last night as I was sitting next to my poor hubby (he doesn’t feel well) on our garden bench by the pond, I felt blessed. The sound of the pond. The smell of the flowers. The sight of their blooms. Watching and hearing my kids laugh and run and play with the baby goats. I felt so happy. I have a picture of me with Aaron’s grandma on that same bench (on my computer that crashed) and I was remembering how much she loved it. We got a call last night that her hours on this earth are almost gone and we need to go and see her. I felt mad at myself for not spending more time with her and my own grandma. But thankful for the times we did. Life is so short and so precious. Where am I spending my time? What am I chasing after? This summer I am chasing my kids; family. Yes physically. But also spiritually. I want to impart so much in them in this precious time I have with them. I want to soak up all of their sweetness and silliness. I want to play catch with them and chase fireflies. I want to sit and do nothing with them. My usual summer to do list is long. But this summer there is only one thing on my list. To be present.
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